Resolute?

It's so bizarre being home so early. We closed the store an hour early and it makes me feel off-- but I'm not complaining, thank you New Years.

So, this New Years Resolution thing seems to be fairly popular. I know it's a tradition to make a list of goals to make through the year and only complete 2% of it. I hear the stereotypical "lose weight", "exercise", and those goals are extremely admirable but only if they're completed. So, this year I'm making a list; I've never made a list before. I'm putting a lot of thought into these numbered items so that they are realistic and achievable. So far I only have eight. There are actually a couple of dumb ones on here-- so dumb, in fact, that I feel stupid for even listing them on this blog but some others include exercising [yoga is included. I'm going to keep up with this because even if I can't make it to a gym I can still feel good.], finish my half read books [I've started this already and I'm doing fairly well-- however, I keep buying more books so I'm fighting an uphill battle], plan my clash-bang road trip, do more writing and this list continues on. I'm pretty sure I'll end up adding more as I scratch some off. Maybe "New Year's Resolution" isn't the right title; it's more like "Perpetual Life Alterations".

I'm writing my scary college essay tomorrow. I'm actually extremely nervous about this. To be honest, why would they want me at their college? What can I contribute? I feel so dumb writing this. I'm pretty sure I can come up with the body of the paper-- but what about the beginning?How does it all start? If anyone at all has any help with how to start a paper of this nature, some ideas would be great.

To continue with my Perpetual Life Alterations I think that adding "be more diligent with studies" would be stupid. Honestly, my grades were better than I could ask for and if I push myself any more I'll fall off the cliff. I'm not putting anything about cleaning on there because I know I won't follow through. I might add something about my attitude. Maybe something about trying to make time for friends-- I realize I miss everyone and as school gets tougher time will not be as accessible. I just added 'seek out theatre opportunities'.

I want to be a pirate. Maybe that should be added to the list...

I realized I haven't looked at a computer since the 29th. It's pretty impressive, if you think about it.


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--Carmen