The Funeral Baked Meats

Death is abrupt and rude. It's a bizarre concept, really. No longer existing. And I don't believe it has a lasting impression on people even though many spend some part of their life worrying or thinking about death. For example, celebrities are immortalized and are the ones who will last forever, right? Heath Ledger had the nation in an uproar over his death/suicide, but has anyone thought about him since? I doubt it. This is too bad. The idea of death doesn't seem real and is very abstract. Even though I never met the guy it still surprises me when I revisit his death. It's so unreal.

Death kind of scares me. It shouldn't, because I know where I'll be going, but it still scares me. It mostly scares me because that's when Doubt manipulates and twists its self in a way that causes me worry. Why? Maybe it's because death is the ultimate unknown. "What if" seems to be the weapon of choice when Doubt wants me to think twice. That's what scares me. That I don't know for sure and I think I should. It scares me that He thinks I'm doubting Him. It also scares me because I love too many people. It's too bad that I'll spend my entire life learning to love people and then being taken from them or them from me. What's worse, there are people I know I won't see ever again. I believe in Jesus. I believe in heaven. So I know that those who also believe in Him and accept Him, I will see one day after death. However, my heart breaks for those I won't see there. That's a really scary thing. All those people... It scares me a lot. It's not fair that I have a very limited time to reach the world.

death
-noun
1. the act of dying; the end of life; the total and permanent cessation of all the vital functions of an organism.

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