Don't Bring A Knife To A Gun Fight

I've noticed there are some people who never cease to disappoint. It's such a frequent occurrence that I have learned not to depend on them. It's a sad thing when a person has the power to continually convince me to believe in them and continually lets me down. It happened today, and I knew it would, yet I always think "Oh, So-and-so will be here. So-and-so can't do this all the time." And who didn't show up? So-and-so. Sad to say, I'm more disappointed in myself for believing that this person would actually prove me right and show up. I always think the best of people, even those who don't give me reason to think this, and this is what gets me into trouble. Honestly, I haven't relied on anyone in a very, very long time. But, for some reason, this person has the power in making me think they will give me reason to believe in them. However, they have been so continuously unreliable that I have lost all trust in them. How does this person keep letting me down?

I love coffee.

I don't want to go back to school. I have so much to do and I don't want to do it. Just one more semester and I'll have a degree. This is the only thing that keeps me from dropping it all and moving to Europe.

I love books. I'm covering my wall with shelves so that they can be filled with books. Right now I have a fairly big shelf and I'm running out of space. I don't just love to read books, but I love looking at them. And the smell. I like naked books, not the ones covered in sleeves. Those are ugly. I love the gold lettering against the dull, dried leaf colored binding. The best gift I got for my birthday was $20 to buy 75 cent books from Salvation Army. $250 worth of books for under $20. Books never go out of style.

Thank God for pastors that will dissect details that are so worth noticing but I'm prone to overlook. I learn so much from this. I should probably start looking into details like this because I get excited learning cool things like this.

I got a free peppermint mocha but it didn't have an affect on me that a free coffee should. Something felt a little underhanded about it.


The turtle turned and shamed me.
--Carmen